My mind works in weird ways, and I feel like I am composed of 1 trillion identities, each having a conditional functioning.  Today I feel irritated in a sense, my girlfriend forgot my birth date this morning and, consequentially, it threw me off course for the majority of my morning (I shouldn't be mad because forgetting peoples birthday's generally happens when the people get comfortable with one another and remembering the date is no longer an important fact to remember, because you may remember when the date is near + you have Facebook to remind you).  Coincidentally enough, there was a man in a wheelchair with an obvious disability (possibly spina bifida?) who muttered the words, "you get agitated very easily", as I walked past him... for a split second, I was shocked at the fact that he may have known how I was feeling based on my facial expression at the time, and I wanted to understand what gave it away.  I did a quick double take and asked him how he knew what I was feeling (just because I heard that people with disabilities also have extra-abilities, ex: how deaf or blind people know when someone has entered the room due to an enhanced sense of spatial control and touch) but to my disappointment he had a hands-free bluetooth piece in his ear and was talking to someone else.  Loss!

On an in-side note, when the kitchen is completely quiet, the new dishwasher sounds like a lionster (a monster with a lion roar).  I got home from work at around midnight and was eating my left overs to this sound for about 10 minutes without realizing what the sound was.  For a while, I thought it was in my head because I sometimes have a hard time differentiating between an experience feeling real and actually being real- not in a schizo kind of way.  But after about 5 minutes of contemplating whether I was having my first phantasmagoric experience involving a monster, I came to the conclusion that because the noise was louder as I approached the dishwasher, that it had to be the dishwasher.  Believe me, I was unhappy with the results of that.  

 On an out-side note, I read a bumper sticker today that stated "Guns Save Lives", and underneath it was a statistic claiming that 2.5 million people have been saved by guns.  Based on the bumper stickers and a license plate that read , "GNFAN", I assumed that this person was most likely a (extreme) right-winged supporter of the NRA (National Rifle Association).  First of all, that is a conditional statement, because yes I agree with the fact that a gun may save lives, but only does it save lives when there is more than one person that is being targeted with the gun.  Basically, what I am saying is that if person A were to approach person B with a gun in suggestive positioning and person B reacted in a such a way as to defend himself/herself by pulling out a gun and fatally shooting person A, person B would be saving his/her own life while taking the life of person A.  In this case, there is no saving being done due to a neutral result (-1 + 1 = 0).  How this statement holds true is defined in scenario #2.  In scenario #2, we have an incident like the one seen in Fort Hood, Texas where a (Army Medical Corps) Major and psychiatrist, Nidal Malik Hasan, went on a rampage killing 12 people and injuring around 30.  In this horrifying case of an outward attack from a mentally afflicted man, a gun is what saved more people from being killed.  He stood behind a desk and unloaded 15 rounds (using 2 guns) on the people who were inside the Soldier Readiness Center preparing for a deployment sometime in the coming weeks.  Luckily, Hassan was stopped by 4 shots below the waist (he will inevitably never walk again).  This was one man taking 12 lives with the possibility of taking more.  Soldiers that came to defend against more lives being taken fired however many rounds and managed to bring him down, eliminating the risk of Hassan taking more lives.  Let's do the math.  Approximately 300 people were in the SRC at the time of the shooting, 42-44 were hit by bullets, 12-13 died, 30-31 survived.  256-258 lives were saved by stopping Hassan with guns.  Uh oh, we are forgetting something.  The 42-44 people that were hit by bullets may not have all been from Hassan, FOX News reported that friendly fire from the soldiers who brought Hassan may have been another reason for the high number of wounded victims... but obviously not a large enough factor to take away from anything that Hassan did.  So YES, in this case, guns did save 256-258 lives, but in the same respect, guns did take away 12-13 lives while hurting 42-44... but the number of people saved is overpowering in this case.  

 Gun control is a very messy situation, and with an ever-growing black market for guns, we will never be able to take them off of the streets and out of irresponsible/unstable hands.  What I do not recommend though, is the constant reinforcement (made by organizations like the NRA) of guns being a necessity and being made accessible to the public... Come on now, we all know that hunting isn't a do or die sport, it's a do and kill sport... Come on now, we all know that not all of us are qualified to own a gun (even if you have a license)... Come on now, we all know that in times of emotional extremis we won't always be able to convince ourselves not to take the life of another or our own (irrational thinking and instinctual behavior has always been an almost uncontrollable power).  The issue won't be resolved until the entire United States is educated in pacifism and understanding over violence and instinctual reaction.  We just need to think, people. 

Damn this post was longer than I wanted it to be, I guess I just felt like ranting.  Rant, rant, rant.  Ranter.  Why are you always ranting? 

I haven't really thought about that yet, I'm cynical maybe?